By Maquis Leader
Author’s note: There’s no place
like home. Yeah right…
" You have 30 minutes. " The guard stepped out of the room.
Chakotay smiled at Kathryn through the
force field. " Glad you could make it. "
" Chakotay, I told you I didn't want to see you. "
" So you did. "
Admiral Paris to order me to come see you was a nasty trick. " Her glare threatened to short out the energy field.
He nodded. " I suppose it was. "
Then why? "
Because I love you. "
She softened. " I love you, too. "
Then why don't you
want to see me? "
" I don't want to see you here! "
Kathryn gestured at
the ugly gray walls. " Not in this awful place! "
" Kathryn, I know it's difficult. "
" No, you don't! You have no idea. It's so hard to be finally home – but without you ... "
It’s not home. Kathryn, I do understand. Where you are is my home. " He said softly. " on Earth, or Voyager, or some unnamed planet somewhere. If you're with me then I'm home. "
Tears welled up in her eyes and rolled down her cheeks. " I almost wish we were still in the
Then we wouldn't have
had our one night together. We'd still be waiting. " Chakotay wished he could reach through
the force field to wipe away her tears.
Except you didn't wait. " It still hurt to think of his dates with Seven.
He sighed. "
How many times do
I have to apologize? "
" I'm the one who should apologize. " Echoing his sigh, Kathryn wiped the
tears off her cheeks. " I thought you
knew how I felt without bothering to show you. "
" You were the
Captain and protocol
Would protocol have been
damaged that much
if I kissed your
Somehow, I don't think giving you a hug would have been that far out of line. "
Then why didn't you? " Chakotay couldn't hide the bitterness.
Because I was afraid
I wouldn't be able to stop. I was afraid if I
kissed you, we'd end up making love. "
that would have
been out of line. " He grinned, dimples flashing. " At least as far as Starfleet’s concerned. It would have been fine with me. "
What would you have
" If you had kissed me? Probably exactly what I did when you finally did
Her cheeks grew hot. " That’ll be
one little footnote
they won't tell about Voyager's journey. "
" I can see it – a little plaque
in your ready room. " He held up his hands as if holding something.
" Oh God. " She covered her eyes. " Don’t
say it! "
Here on this desk
Commander Chakotay fucked
Captain Janeway's brains
out for the first time."
" Fucked? Chakotay!
We made love! " She clapped
her hands over her mouth as the words bounced off the concrete walls.
Chakotay arched an eyebrow. " Kathryn, we fucked. Hard, quick, and dirty. "
" Oh God, it was sleazy, wasn't it? " Her cheeks grew hot remembering laying face down
across her desk with Chakotay’s hands gripping her hips and twisted in her
uniform jacket. Grunting lustily as he
pumped into her.
we both loved it. " He was a little ashamed of how roughly he’d treated
her, but only a little.
We’ll have to make
up a more romantic story to tell our children. "
We’ll have plenty of
time to think of something. "
" At least a year. "
months, two weeks, and six days. "
It was Kathryn's turn to raise her eyebrows. "
You were around Tuvok too
Just being precise.
I'm ex-Starfleet now, but old habits die hard. "
You’re too good for
" Starfleet didn't deserve
you. Hell, they didn’t deserve me.
" You know ... "
He rubbed his fingers over the scarred tabletop. " They allow conjugal visits. "
" Conjugal visits? "
" For married inmates. "
" We’re not – " Her heart seemed to pause between beats.
" We could be.
If you wanted. " His love was there raw and exposed for her to see. " If you still want to be with me when – "
" Of course I
want to be with you! Being in prison doesn't change my feelings for you. "
" Then you'll marry me? "
" Yes, oh yes! " She buried her face in her hands as the tears started again. "This is wrong. It's all so wrong. "
" I'm sorry.
I wanted it to be perfect and romantic, but this is what
we have. " He raised his
hand to the edge of the force field. " Marry me, Kathryn. "
She held her hand
as close to his as she could. The energy tingled down her
fingers into her
arm. " Yes. "
" Then they'll let us touch. And make love. " The energy
crawling over his
skin forced him
to pull his hand down.
" You just want in my pants again! " She accused.
" I can't lie. " He grinned. "
Once just whetted my
" Can’t you wait? "
" No. " His heart flipped
over as she smiled that crooked smile
he loved so much.
" You waited seven years and now you can't wait
ten months? "
" Ten months, two weeks, and – "
" Six days! I know, I know! " She laughed.
" But here? In this ugly place? "
" They won't make us do it here on the table, Kathryn.”
" Not that we haven't done something
like that already. "
" All the matters is that we’ll be together, and it will be beautiful. "
" I hate to
think of you in here. " Her bottom
" Locked in.
" Kathryn – “
" Chakotay, it's horrible here. "
What could he say? Prison was supposed to be horrible. It was all
his fault they had to sit here with a force field separating them. "
There’s a picnic in
a month. Inmates can have
in a family member or two.”
For inmates on good
" Well, if a certain inmate can
behave for the next 30 days ... "
" A certain inmate should
stop being so
Kathryn agreed. "
But the picnic is
for family members. "
spouse is a family
" Fiancée. "
" Fiancée. " Chakotay sighed. " Stubborn. "
" Contrary. " She
We’ll be able to
touch, huh? "
" Yes. " The
black velvet eyes
lit up. " Once I have
my hands on you, no doubt I’ll be dragging you off into the bushes to rape you. "
much for good
long as I get a little before they pull
me off of you. "
" I wish I'd had the courage to give in on New Earth. "
" I wish I'd had the courage to crawl in your bed with you one night. Or in your bathtub. "
Why didn't you?
" She missed
" I thought we had forever. If I'd known Tuvok would finally
become a Maquis
and disobey orders, I’d have been a little pushier. "
" I wonder what would have happened
if you had? "
She'd wondered for the
past five years, but never had the courage ask. "
Could we have went back
to Voyager as
lovers or would
we have tried
to pretend it
would be like
it is now, Kathryn. " He shook his head. " There’s no going
back. Before, my body and soul yearned
for yours. Now, it screams out for you. "
Mine too. "
She missed him
terribly every moment
of the day and the nights were torture. " Chakotay, forgive me for making you wait. "
" I forgave you a long time ago. You are the way you are. "
" Stubborn, obstinate,
stupid – " Kathryn ticked off her qualities
on her fingers.
Frightened and unsure. " Chakotay countered.
How could you even
stand me? "
" He smiled. " ‘If I judged
you, I would never have
Who said that?
One of your saints, Mother Teresa. "
Kathryn laughed. "
And you've shown patience worthy of a
until the end. "
" Chakotay – “
" I need to say it, Kathryn. "
Chakotay tugged at his
ear as he tried to put his thoughts together. " I tried to lie to myself at first. Told myself her innocence was
what attracted me. The thought that she'd never
been with a man – well it's an
exciting thought for a man. "
You had a right to
be happy, even if it was with someone
else. " Remember what you get for lying, Kathryn.
" I wasn't trying
to be happy. I wanted to hurt you. I knew you’d be hurt if I dated any woman on Voyager. But Seven? " He ducked his
head in shame. " I knew that would
hurt you the most.
She was your protégé, your child
His voice faded to
a whisper. "
It was the worst betrayal. "
" Chakotay, I've already forgiven
" What? "
" You were supposed to be by my side when we came home. " She pouted.
Don’t do that when
I can't kiss you. "
I marry you
here…” The leap of joy in his eyes made Kathryn smile. “Can
we have another
Your mother is insisting
on it. "
to my mother? " Her mother hadn’t said
anything about talking to Chakotay.
Well, I can't talk
to your father
to ask permission
to court you. " He teased.
You asked permission? " Tears welled up
in her eyes again. "
That’s so old fashioned and sexist.
" That’s what she said when Tom gave her the gifts. "
" How come she
gets gifts? Where's
my gifts? "
You’re looking at
it. " Chakotay spread his arms out wide.
You I've had.
" She pouted again. “I need coffee.”
It’s traditional to gift the parents of the woman being courted. "
What did you give
her? " Kathryn
still didn't think
it was fair her mother got
The material I found
on Tarin – the blue shimmery stuff – I remembered
you said she sews. And my rosebushes. "
Your rosebushes? You pampered and nurtured those things
for seven years! " Her jaw dropped. "You wouldn't even
let Kes touch
They’re precious to me, but not as much as you. I also gave her Neelix’s edible recipes, including the
one for his custard. "
Was that for her
or you? " Kathryn rolled
her eyes. " You and your sweet
“You told me she loves to cook! " He protested. "
Why shouldn't she cook
She’ll make you fat in a month. "
A sexy smile spread across
his face. " Guess you'll have
to help me work it off. "
made her sigh. " Don't give me dimples now. Not when I can’t kiss you. "
Say yes. "
His smile widened. " We can
get married at
the picnic. That way your mother – “
" No! Bad enough I have to be married in a prison – I don't want her to see it! Her bridge club must be giving her a hard enough time
as it is. "
Once they meet her
charming son-in-law they'll forgive her
for having an
ex-con in the
dimples can charm any
woman between 8 and
" I'd call you
conceited, but it's true. "
" Admiral Paris can
pull a few strings
and marry us tomorrow. What do you say? "
You think he will? " Kathryn
remembered how disappointed
he'd looked as
they discussed some
of her decisions
in the Delta Quadrant.
He’s my sister’s father now. He'll do it. " Chakotay
grinned. " B'Elanna will just hand him Miral and say ‘pretty please’. "
" B'Elanna saying
‘pretty please’ is a scary thought. " She laughed at that mental picture.
" All right!
I'm going to be a jailhouse bride.
Sounds like one of
Tom's holodeck adventures! "
From Queen Arachnia to Jailhouse Bride. Quite a fall. "
Your ring will have
to wait, I can't give you one in here. "
you want to count the ankle bracelet. "
She joked. "
We'll go get them together in
ten months, two
weeks, and six days. "
" I could design something, I've
got time. Something Keltic, maybe? The circles remind me of the medicine wheel. "
The knot for the
Chakotay blinked. “There's a
Kathryn giggled. For a change her ancient traditions had
" Yes, sweetheart, there is. "
Say it again.
" He propped
his chin up on his hand. " Call me
" Sweetheart. Honey,
baby, sugar, and darlin’." She
smiled as she
raised her hand
to the edge of the force field again. " I love you, Chakotay. "
" I love you, too, Kathryn. "
He held his hand up to hers. Gritting his teeth, he forced his hand as close as he could, risking
a shock from the field.
The door opened and
the guard came
in. " Time's up. "
With one last smile, Chakotay stood up
and walked out. Kathryn sighed, wondering if she'd ever get used
to his habit of not saying goodbye.
Outside, he stood in the sunshine for a minute. His heart was happy and sad at the same time. Was she outside?
Was Kathryn standing in the same sunshine?
Turning her face up, Kathryn let the sun warm her skin. Seven years she'd
spent trying to
get home to stand in this sun. Was Chakotay standing in the same sunshine?
Looks like the
Must be nice to have friends in high places.
" So, how'd it go? " Tom leveled
the Flyer out and
headed for San
" Looks like there's going to be a
wedding tomorrow. "
" Congratulations! So why the long face? "
" It isn't supposed to be this way, Tom. I should be the one in prison – look at the
rules I’ve broken.
The prime directive
and the temporal
prime directive – and that's
just for starters. "
" Hey, I don't
ask Fate why she does things. I just go with
it. It’s worked pretty
well so far. "
" We can't exchange rings. "
" There’ll be a ring. " Tom grinned. "
It’ll just have pretty
flashing lights on
" Yeah, and that mouth-to-mouth resuscitation counted
as a kiss, too.”
" When was that? You never told anyone
about actual lip
was information I
needed for the
" ‘I was a jailhouse
bride’. Now there's
a wedding memory. "
" You know what they say, truth is stranger
" Tom looked
great title for
" Take it, it’s
yours. Tom, am I doing the right thing? Or am I just being too horny for
my own good? "
" No such thing as being too horny – take it from a man who married a Klingon."
" I have to
get a white dress. It’s bad
enough we have
to get married
with an ankle
restraint for a
wedding ring – there's
going to be a white dress. "
" Hey relax, Chief. " Tom patted Chakotay
on the shoulder. " We’ll find
the dress, my
dad will do the honors, and maybe he'll
be able to get them to take the ankle restraint off for
the wedding night. Although ... " He waggled
his eyebrows suggestively. " Could be kinda fun. "
" Shut up, Tom. Just get us home, I've got a dress to buy." Chakotay said drily. He shook his head at the irony of it all ... the Maquis rebel goes free, while the Starfleet Captain goes to prison. Maybe he could put a file in the wedding cake.
" Hang on! "
Tom threw the
Flyer into a tight spiral as they neared the California coast.
Chapter two:Just One Kiss
Thanks to SuzieQ for the wedding cake line!